Turkey Eve

Well, it would seem as if another Thanksgiving Turkey day is upon us. Funny how each year we seem so suprised that this day is upon us. Almost like we expect it somehow to NOT show up year after year. Kind of like how its suddenly Friday again. As if we suddenly expect Thursday to turn into Saturday? and just skip over Friday or something. I don't know. Anyway, I have a lot to be thankful for, yet seems I am ungrateful regularly. I have had a rough year with a lot of various different things going on in my life contributing to my rough year. Since I've had a rough year I've not taken much time to be thankful for the things that ARE going right and well in my life. Amazing how we can take several unfortunate things and suddenly we become un-thankful for the things that are going right in our lives. Like for example, a few weeks back after my long, gruling, 8 hour shift that started at 6:30am I was laid off. From a job I loved, and loved the people I worked with. I still do not know why they laid me off. Since then I have managed to find lots of time to complain and stress out about not having any money to pay for my car or health insurance. When in reality I should be grateful that I have health insurance and a great car that does get me to a job interview to bring me money. See what I mean? DOes that happen to anybody else or is it just me? I also have great family and friends to be thankful for. They always seem to show up at the right moments and often at times without even knowing I needed them. It's amazing how a good friend or family member responds without even knowing you were in need at that moment in time. Wow...this is becoming such a boring blog post I'm even boring myself. Random topic change....

It's exactly 1:11am and I am watching the clock because I am planning to be up at 8:00 to leave by 8:15am to go for a work out with my dear friend Gretchen. Holla Gretchen Holla! Everybody say Hi to Gretchen for she is one of THE BEST Personal Trainers I know, not to mention VERY DEAR friend to my heart. We met simply because she teaches at the same Y I go to and I went to a few of her classes and we just hit it off and became good friends really fast. Last weekend her girls and I spent the majority of the weekend together and it was pure bliss. Love my adopted Vavrosky family! Moving on, so that leaves me with less than 7n hrs of sleep and a very busy turkey day tomorrow. Huh....Friday morning planning to get up early to go Black Friday Shopping with my Dad. I'd love to sleep in, but if one wants the deals one has to get up. I also know that one day I will look up and say "I miss those Black Fridays when my Dad would want to get up early and go get...." some day. I'm going to miss those moments. It has taken me a long time to recognize parts of myself that I do not like and accept that I do not like them and what and how to change to become a person I like better. It had gotten to a point where I didn't want to be with myself anymore. Yes, people it is possible to annoy yourself ;) Don't tell me I am the ONLY person who feels like that! See you're thinking now...I'll wait for you to finish thinking. You're welcome ;) One of the many things I disliked about myself was all the moments I would say, "My Dad annoys me when...." those moments were becoming closer and closer together and happening more and more. Since I've learned to let those go and think more along the lines of "I'm going to miss this" I've become much more patient with my Dad and learned to enjoy his company even when he is annoying me so thoroughly ;) I've also come to recognize that I am a very impatient person, particularly when driving. Since this self-realizing has been going on I've been much more patient with other drivers and have come to understand that maybe others feel the same way about my driving? Ask me about this and I'll deny I ever said that though ;) I've realized I'm just very impatient in general though, and I am truly trying to re-found my patience again. Random topic change again...
So I'm watching some silly late night poker show and had a funny relization. I know NOTHING about poker mind you, but it would seem as if this game is nothing more than a game of BS. Players put coins worth monitary values into the pot based on their cards in their hands. They all go round and round the table until suddenly soo many people give up and fold. Suddenly you could have a crappy hand and have suddenly wont several thousand dollars because everybody else around the table folded yet they had better cards than you. Funny how another player on said show just said the same thing I just said. Hand over, guy with the best hand just lost because he chose to fold. Again, I have no clue what they are playing besides Poker.

Well seeing as how it is now 1:24am I should probably call it a night if I intend to be up on time to go get my work out in. Hope this finds all well and everybody has a great Thanksgiving with your loved ones.

Tuesday again...

Well, here we are on Tuesday November 7th and I am once again jobless. Yes, people I got laid off AGAIN. Why is it that every company I get work through seriously overstaff’s then lays people off? Seems that I get laid off more frequently than others because of my health conditions. Dysautonomia is just the TIP of all my health conditions. Did I mention I have no health insurance either?? Yeah, found that one out on Thursday when I went to Walmart to go pick up my insulin. Awesome…So now I have no job, and no health insurance; which means I have NO way to pay for said health insurance once I obtain it again. So Where were we? Oh yes, whinesville. So I started my OWN “Honey-Do List” which entails in no specific order, wash all laundry, go through said laundry and get rid of stuff that doesn’t fit or I no longer wear, get my room organised, scour any and all job sites to find a new job. Figure that should take me to the end of the week…then what?! Oh and am going to spend some extra time in the gym this week trying to get my workouts back on track. Speaking of workouts, today happens to be my good friend Gretchen’s 40th Birthday ;) So Happy BIG Birthday today Gretchen. Make it count you only turn 40 once baby! I wish I had something more interesting to say, but pretty much everything I have to say right now is either going to be a long a** whine, or rant….so…..until I have something nice to say I will sign off for now. Please pardon all spelling errors and typos, I may or may not have been sober last night and just don’t care right now ;)

It's Sunday

Yes, folks it's Sunday. Which means back to the grind tomorrow for most. This week has been a LONG week medically for me, my family, and friends. One day last week my Aunt's best friends husband was admitted to the hospital for a severe allergic reaction to antibiotics and took them ALL week to figure it out. He was in a COMA and having seizures his reaction was so bad. Then my good friend H, was admitted again for vomiting and severe chest pain, they finally figured out it was her appendiz. On the 17th my friend E, had her FIFTH baby boy, and he is a CUTIE! Two days after that she found out her older boys Dad was diagnosed with cancer in his liver and colon; and one day this last week he went and had to get his central line placed for his chemo. Then on Thursday I slipt and fell on the ice on my front steps and I fractured my L3, and my L4 and L5 are fusing together. So I am now wearing a special back brace to help things hopefully heal correctly. And now here we are on Sunday. Wow. What a week. Still no word on the job situation. Today we went and had breakfast/brunch and went to Menards. Did you know that you can use the BLUE bag of salt for a hot water heater instead of Ice Melt? Yeah, you can.
You're welcome. So we bought 2 bags. After we got home Dad went out and the shoveled up the ice that the ice melt had worked on.

Is anybody else as OBSESSED with the Olympics as I am right now? However, I HAVE had ENOUGH cross country skiing, and Biathalon. They are ALMOST the same sport. I mean seriously, how many hours of this do we need to see? Isn't it all pretty much the same thing? Oh, and as much as I like our state hockey team, I do not wish to watch the Olympic hockey games. I would rather watch them downhill ski, snowboard, ice skate, luge, bobsled those kinds of things. What are your favorite events of the Winter Olympics?

I have some tidbits of information about choices our local government is making, but that's a whole nother post in and of itself that I will discuss later. However, I refuse to get all political about it. I will not argue for one party or another as that's not what this blog is about or for. You are welcome to disagree with me, but please be respectful. Disrespectful posts will be promptly deleted.

I have/HAD all these things to say, but since I got hurt on Thursday all my fleeting thoughts seem to be evading me right now. My head's just been in a FOG since. I can't think, at times I can hardly formulate a thought, and I am having issues with my short term memory. I guess this is all normal with a tramautic back injury, but dang. I hope it changes SOON. Because of this I've said some really stupid stuff lately. Like, the other day my Dad and I both needed tabs, so we went to the DMV, while there I told the nice lady working there that CHRISTMAS was coming, yes you read that right I said Christmas. I meant Summer! But Christmas is what was coming out of my mouth. While trying to tell her I didn't expire until March I told her, January, June and July. I'm pretty sure my whole conversation with her was peppered with stupid inaccuracies all across the board. It's a good thing my Dad was with or she might not have let me leave for fear I was doing drugs. Oh maybe I was..Just kidding I wasn't, but I sure FELT like I was. Now tonight turning my head makes me dizzy, and my back hurts. Ok well, I might not be back for a few days because I'm hurting so much and can't hardly think. But I'll try and check in when I can. What funny things have YOU said while injured or under anesthesia?
P.S. PLEASEEE if you're reading will you please, I beg of you, PLEASE leave me a comment so I know who you are reading? Even if all you say is HELLO ;) Happy Monday Eve!

Warning: LOTS of Whining Ahead!

GRR....It's been a day. So this morning we decided we would head out and run a few errands and then go eat at a VERY famouse Italian Restaurant in St. Paul called Cosetta's. On our way out the door, I slipped and fell on the ice on the front steps. Well, needless to say my left hand is about double the size of my right hand in the fleshy part, and I'm sporting a big ol' blood blister. And my back and left leg, ugh. That's all I have to say. My lower left back hurts pretty bad. Seems as I have pulled some muscles pretty badly, possibly pinched a nerve, and have some nasty muscle bruising. So I'll be sore for a few days. They told me to ice it for 15 min. out of every hour, and come back tomorrow. Ok, so back tomorrow I will go. So needless to say pain pills, muscle relaxers and ice-packs will be my best friends for a few days. Then tonight my best friend called and told me a NASTY story about how her Mom is choosing her bf over her OWN kids, and it makes me literally sick to my stomach thinking about it. Especially for the 15 yr old involved. The 15 yr old can do literally nothing about it. Her Dad isn't any better, he's just as verbally abusive if not worse than Mom or her BF. UGH. Can I throw up now?! Then her Mom turns around and tells her that she wishes she didn't live with ANY of her kids, yet when they Don't live their she whines and cries about that too. Bi-polar anyone?!?! And everybody wonders why this kid has so many anger issues. What else?? I've been pretty obsessed with the Olympics lately. Hey, it's decent TV for 16-17 days. But SERIOUSLY, ENOUGH with the Cross-Country and Biathalon already! It's about as exciting as watching NASCAR or BAsketball. NEXT! I had more to tell you, but those thoughts seem to be fleeting me right now with the news about my friends sister, and my back pain. Now...Where did I Put those pain pills? and ice pack?

Tomorrow Tomorrow

I will update Tomorrow..err I guess later TODAY when my brain is turned more on and I can formulate more than a thought or two.

Why am I awake at 3:24am?

I don't know. I have nothing of real interest to say, but thought I'd update the good ol' blog anyway since well, I am awake. When else is there to do it? During the day you say? Oh, never thought of that ;P I've spent the weekend doing much of nothing because I seem to be plauged by a serious migraine. Today the migraine was accompanied by dizziness, severe dizziness, and fluid in my ears. My Mom told me to try some allergy pills for the fluid in my ears. Can't hurt to try it? What's the worst that'll happen? So today I literally did NOTHING. I woke up around 1:00pm, and realized I was home alone so I watched Duplicity, with Julia Roberts. Good movie, but it's one of those you need to watch all the way through or you miss things, important things. Needless to say I'm going to watch it another time or two. About 3:15pm "lunch" was ready so I got up and ate. Made it as far as the couch and that was it. I can probably count the amount of times I got off the couch on both of my hands. I was just so dizzy that when I did get up, I walked funny. Walking in a straight line was OUT. OF. THE. QUESTION. As comical as it is, it became annoying so instead I just parked it on the couch and there I stayed the rest of the night until 3:00am. Hoping tomorrow will be better. I do have a chiropractor appointment at 2:00pm so hoping maybe with an adjustment my migraine will get better? I don't know. But I can hope! Spent most of the day sitting on the couch watching movies, and the Grammys and editing pictures for various photo shoots. I found a really neat program with some awesome collage ideas in it. I know Photoshop fairly well, and really like it, but this program has a few really neat fast features that Photoshop either doesn't have, or take longer to accomplish than this program does. The only downfall to the program is that it does have a yearly fee, but it is relatively in-expensive though so I think I might get it. As for now I'm watching Chocolat and hoping to wind down for sleep sometime soon. Maybe I'll post some of my pictures later, maybe I won't, ah who knows. Hope everybody had a great weekend. What did you do for excitement over the weekend? Anybody got any good ideas for migraines?

The Reason In Which I ALMOST got kicked out of the funeral....

HAHA! Yup, bout darn near got my booty kicked out of the funeral home! But it was hilarious. Ok maybe in a sick twisted sort of way, but really it was. Let me tell you the story first, and then YOU try and tell me it's not funny. When we first got there, My Dad and I, that is we signed the "guest book", which I don't understand, but I digress. We then went up to the front of the funeral home where the open casket sat. Let me start by telling you a lil' bit about Sr. He was a great, noble, straight shooter kind of guy. You might not like what he said, but he wasn't going to sugar coat or beat around the bush about anything. He'd tell it like it is. IF he thought it was B.S. he'd say JUST That. Whatever that's the kind of guy he was, and everybody loved him for it. He had a BIG truck that he had tricked out, and it was ALWAYS clean. He was forver tinkering with it. He had restored an old '68' Bell something..haha can't think of what it's called. Anyway, he also LOVED to fish at the cabin, and ride his motorcycle. He was that kind of guy. But had the heart of gold. Even if he didn't have the shirt to give you, he'd still give you 3. Society lost a GREAT guy on Sunday. So. We approached the casket and Sr was wearing a nice pair of blue jeans, and an awesome Harley Davidson shirt. But when you looked at Sr. himself, he looked like a wax figure. His skin looked like BABY pink, there was NOTHING natural about the color of his skin from all the make up they used on him. His hands, were an odd color too, they had wrapped his rosary around his hands as well. Apparently he was Cathlic? The funny part was, all you could see of his rosary were the beads, they had the cross inside his hands where you couldn't see it. So when we left, I asked my Dad if he was practicing Witchcraft of some sort, or had some strange religous beliefs I was unaware of. His religious beliefs are unimportant to me, I was just curious. Had the cross part been out where it could be seen I would have known right away what it was. But I was also unaware of the fact that when they bury Catholics they bury them with a rosary in their hands. I'd had never been to a Catholic funeral before, call me naive, but I hadn't so I just simply didn't know that. Of course I felt really stupid after the fact and am glad I waited until we left to ask my Dad about it. I couldn't help myself and laugh at the fact that he looked soo much like a wax figure though. I wanted to slap the ol' man and tell him to get up and dance! Sr. had this laugh that was unmistakable and hearty.

Moving on...

So ya know Apple? The computer company with the apple on it? Ya, that one. So they have Imac,s Ipods, I phones, and now even an Ipad... where the hell is the Ibrator? I mean they have everything elses, but wheres the Ibrator? Talk about am multi-purpose tool. I mean they are PORTABLE. You could truly fulfill ALL your daily needs with one of those. Need I say more... No? I didn't think so.

Well, I hope everybody is having an awesome weekend. I'm sure I'll be back at some point with more stupid craziness we call life!